I found this on 's journal of common fears. What the hell, I'm stuck in soul reaver 3 anyway lol...

I Fear…

[X] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[v] closed spaces (Only if the space is small, I can't move or breath)
[X] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[X] spiders (horribly afraid)
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 3½

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[X] success (believe it or not)
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 4½

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death (I'm afraid of dying, but not death. Weird?)
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[v] dolls (depends on the doll. My grandmother has a habit of keeping scary porcelain dolls and take them apart)
[ ] large crowds of people
[X] men (More then women. I'm a small girl [5'1" 110lbs] and I have been taken advantage of but I do face it to prove to myself that not all are that way... but recently I'm starting to find that I'm wrong...)
[ ] women ( I just think many are crazy)
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes

Total so far:6

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[X] ghosts (I KNOW I'll be the first out that door)
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[X] being alone
[X] becoming blind (I'm already half blind and the one that can see still need lens)
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up

Total so far: 9

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles (Very badly)
[x] blood (trust me, if I see gallons of it spewing out of a body, I'll regurgitate)
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets

Final Total: 12



... if you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of _ out of 72 common fears...


If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

wee I'm normal lol...


Anyway for the fucking update.
I'm annoyed at myself. As I should be working on my paper and commissions and Azure got me hooked on another game. Two of the 3 sequels I beat this week. So I'm on the third. I skipped Blood Omen and went on to Soul Reaver then Legacy of Kain: Soul Reaver 2 and now I'm playing Legacy of Kain: Defiance.

I have to say... the changes of game play annoys the fuck out of me. Defiance definately took a wrench to Soul reaver 2 and 1. Gave it a better yet more confusing landscape, 2. overhauled the combat system. and 3. Fuckign fixed the fucking camera. So now, the camera doesn't follow you but stays in one position and lets you pivot the camera bit. Which at first is annoying if you've been playing straight through the series as I have this week.

What I find interesting too is that this game actually puts to use ALL of the (8 2 4 2) 16 fucking buttons XD. That's pretty rare in the type of games I tend to play. I'M SO GLAD THE CHARACTER AUTO LOCK NOW. It was sooo finicky in soul reaver 2. (I still used it though to my advantage when I first died against the 3 Black demons in the home stretch of SR2 and picked off the remaining two one by one with the energy blast from the reaver from a safe distance.) And I love that I can aim my blast better too. but seriously, no love the the fucking camera.

Storywise, I'm not too happy where both characters started. I was completely confused on their placement, thinking that it would start where it left off. Which upon exploring finding that it was somewhat true for Kain but I guess Raziel shelpt his ass back to the Elder God and wallowed and cried for the next 500 years. Though it's ok, I'm starting to get what's going on Since Kain wishes to find Raziel but if Raziel doesn't emerge until 500 years later, wth is Kain running around for? XD

This game is so sweet. If you haven't played it, find it. I don't know if Soul reaver is rare or not but I know Sould reaver2 isn't rare and can be find for less then 10 bucks. You do not need to play Soul reaver to get Soul reaver2. They recap on the few important stuff that happened in soul reaver in SR2's very begining. SR felt like training and only explains how Raziel gains his powers that do not require the soul reaver it self. Granted, the first and second are best played for their intriguing puzzles.

I feel the puzzles for LoKefiance are a bit dummied down from the previous but I think it's to help get to both characters more screen time. Though as Azure pointed out, Raziel still gets the hard intricate puzzles while Kain is... Kain XD :: Watches as Kain hacks, slashes, suck blood from afar and impale is enemies why roaring, "Vae Victus!":: He's so badass, but I'm comfortable with Raziel more XD.

Oh well. Tomorrow is monday which means I'll be back in New York tomorrow. This has been a great vacation with Azure. I enjoyed spending so much time with him and studying together. Azure will be returning with me but only for a few days before the weekend. I also promised him I'd trick out his xbox360 too with what ever picture I want lol..

Color Blind is going to get a overhaul of storyline... Azure and I have been discussing it but he's leaving it completely open to me which annoys me if he's going to be indifferent.

I've been wanting to draw but this game got me hooked lol.. I HAVE TO BEAT THE HECK OUT OF IT WITH A BREADSTICK!!!




bwhahaa...




Edit: I takes it back: the mansion has a bunch of puzzles that piss me off. I'm stuck again XD with what seems an impossible puzzle unless I can some how make the room flip on it's side XD

Edit: btw. anyone trying to call me this week. I'm sorry This time my phone really kicked the bucket by breaking in two. but it's ok because after whining to my mom, she finally ordered a new phone for me that isn't a flip phone that will break in two on me for a third time LOL instead! it SLIDES! and it's red (FINALLY A FUCKIGN RED AND BLACK PHONE BWHAHAHAAA) so when I go back tomorrow people will be able to call me again

It is 9:30 and I just beat kains part in completing the powers of his blade which was just after the mansion with Raziel. So now I have Raziel again running through YET ANOTHER FUCKING TEMPLE WTF LOL the story has barely moved lol weee.. ::continues playing waiting for her mate to come home and tackle her :

Edit: ahhhh!!!!!! 12:45 Azure and I beat the game! That was very satisfying